Winter darkness creates space for journey
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It's raining again and the start of Advent. I'm looking out the window but haven't put my contacts in this morning so the world is a landscape of soft shapes and colours. Somehow it seems right for this moment.
I'm feeling the draw into this time of Darkness, a darkness of reflection. I almost can feel it wrapping around me like a quilt. Warm and comforting ....
In the darkness, if it is clear and really cold, that's when the stars shine the brightest and you can see those ancient fires telling their stories, from great distances of time and space. It reminds me that our stories, my story, comes from the dust of those same places, the sparks of those same fires .... .... ....
It feels like there's a lot to consider this Advent .... .... .... Like those ancient wise ones I feel like I'm on a great journey .... To find something really important. And yet, at the same time, I don't feel like I need to look for something or to find something that is not already accessible to me. But somehow that journey metaphor still feels like the right metaphor for traversing this space and time. Almost as if what I will find does not come from outside but is in fact my story and the way that I will tell it. Stars tell us their story in light .... What is the way that I tell my story .... ?
I think we have made this Advent time too clean. We have stripped it of its power by focusing on a kind of cartoon version of following wise men on the star, of holiday activities. Advent Is a time of pain, really. The bloodiness of birth In a manger. The long journey that precedes it .... .... The perseverance of continuing through a time where it's hard sometimes to see because the light is low and it's cold, where we are in any case.
And now here where I am we add in rain. Flooding rain. The ground is saturated. The paths that we have laid out for ourselves, in a very literal way, have washed away or been covered in debris .... And we are called to stay where we are and just sit in this moment. I'm feeling the call to be in it from this place ....
The darkness wraps around me. And although it is daytime now I can see the light that shines in the darkness. But it is the darkness that is my calling card today. It is where what I seek is held within me. It is where my love lies, my story lies. And I walk towards my story .... I walk toward myself ....
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