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My foot shattered under the weight of the world

6/30/2022

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The brokenness of the world is being lived out in my body.

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​One year and 8 months ago I broke my foot. You would think that by now it would be feeling so much better. And yet, recently, it has been feeling a level of pain and anxiety that it didn't even when it was still broken. My ankle is stiff. And it's like my foot is carrying all of the anxieties.


Today at yoga as I sat on the floor while the rest of the folks carried on with Warrior 2, I continued to flow but, leg spread wide, weight off my foot. And just in paying attention to that sense of anxiety rising from that foot I realized something.


In energy work we often talk about what is the underlying metaphoric message that our body is telling us. I broke this foot when we were just about 8 months into the pandemic. When we had believed we were coming out of it and yet a new wave was emerging. And Bill's dementia was more acute. And I had begun to need to coach him more on things, I had to pay attention more as strange things would show up in the water kettle. It was not only as if, it was the case that I was carrying extra burden.


Today as we had hoped by this point, two years plus past when we all first went into isolation. And while the world seems to be opening up again, in some ways there is caution. Some people are masked, some people are not. And certainly Covid is not gone. More and more of my friends are posting images of the two lines showing on their rapid test.


We are not past this. And yet, even as we are not past this we have hit an economic crisis that has not been seen here for so long. Inflation is as high as I can really remember. They talk about the eighties when I was in high school, high inflation. And now again. But at a time when relative incomes have dropped significantly.


And on top of that environmental devastation. This year as the atmospheric river washed out our roads, the heat dome killed wildlife. And we had the coldest freeze that I remember since my childhood here in BC, the South coast where the weather is typically mild. There have been fire, floods. Over 600 people died in that heat dome last summer and then a fire ripped through an entire town burning it to the ground ....


And now war, with Russia invading Ukraine. The world unsure how to respond. Not wanting to escalate the war and yet standing with Ukraine. And while we offer sanctions against Russia it feels a little bit too much like thoughts and prayers as yet another school in America gets shot up by a gunman. And then, again in America, the overturning of Roe vs Wade which guaranteed the rights to access to abortions for people who needed that service and it has been repealed. States are tripping over themselves to ban legal abortion sending women back underground while continuing to show no love and support for actually born children ....


And its as if all of these are coalescing in my foot. The weight, the world, that sense of the stability being taken away. It's like my body is living it out .... It’s like it is sunk into my ankle, into my foot sending waves of nausea through my whole being. Holding the weight of the world through the brokenness of the world ....  
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Audrey Goosen
6/30/2022 08:41:52 pm

Holding you in Light and Love. Praying summertime, when the living is easy, allows you to "let go" and heal. Thanks for putting into words the huge challenges of our time.

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kimiko
7/2/2022 10:02:08 pm

And holding you in Light and Love Audrey. So grateful for your presence in our Circle.

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Sharon Hartwick
7/2/2022 03:36:40 pm

This is very insightful Kimiko. I also believe that our bodies reflect the way we experience the world and knowing your calling to help heal the world, with so much going on that is out of balance, I can see why it feels like such a heavy load. For myselt, I have had some vision challenges emerge in the last two years... it feels like I can't bear to see all the pain and suffering in our world.
... Yet, I also believe that healing is possible and somehow, as Audrey said, there is a process of accepting and letting go ...and also aligning ourselves with the Divine perfection that our hearts know is possible... that can help with the healing.
...We are facing all of these situations 'together' and I have faith that there is a rising consciousness of spiritual awareness of 'needing to do something' that is bringing people together in community to each add our efforts to help one another. Holding all in Love.

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Pat Jones
7/4/2022 05:54:35 pm

Dearest Kimiko
It may be that your foot is telling you it is time to sit, to rest, to move forward, to listen to the pain. It sounds like your body has been supporting a lot of burdens the past several years. Maybe it is time for a change. I commend for listening to it, for changing direction, for giving up the many practices that have nourished you and others. This cannot be easy. you will be in many prayers and I know you will heal. We all send you blessings and peace and prayers....and hugs.
Pat Jones

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