I found myself using this morning's meditation time tidying up the clutter in my space. It wasn’t a considered thing, I hadn't intended to do that. But somehow that's what I found myself doing.
I'm not really a very tidy person. And because I do so many things I find that it's easy to put aside that piece of, kind of tidying the thing away before I start the new one or move on to something else. I also find this in time of Covid, so much that comes into my space comes through delivery. That’s a new thing. But that's just how it happens and so I sometimes accept the delivery and then put the box in the corner. And found that there were several of those where I had never put the items that I had received away on the somewhat empty shelves that sit above them.
And so, my meditation became clearing space. And it made me thoughtful about that idea of being the change you want to see in the world and what that means. We often think of it as in big terms, in terms of peace or maybe environmentalism. But it is also a helpful reminder for small and everyday things. If you want, if I want to have a sense of spaciousness, that my room is calm, that this place where I spend my time is a peaceful place, then I need to be that, I need to be the one who makes it that. If I want to feel well in my body, then I need to be the one who thinks about what do I want to do, what can I do, to make myself feel well in my body, rather than thinking when I feel better then I will walk more or I eat better or have more energy for....And while that's not untrue, that we have moments where we just need to listen to our body saying to us “just sit today,” it is also true that sometimes just getting outside can be helpful.
This notion of being the change that I want to see, I had to laugh a little bit because I remember hearing someone talk about that in regard to opening space for relationship, for friendship, for lovers even. And she said if your bed is cluttered with things then energetically you are saying that you don't have space for someone to share that with you. If your days never include time to connect, then you won't connect.
If I walk in beauty as I call myself to do, I might not
see the wake of that beauty that I have left behind.
But somebody else who walks there next
may see and experience and appreciate it.
I'm really saying this for myself. This is really just me talking to me .... Being the change. If I want to have beauty in my life then I uphold beauty. Hmm. I feel like this is one of those lessons that I learn over and over and over and I've probably even said these before, out loud, in this space. And yet here I am again reminding myself. And while tidying up this space, taking away the boxes, putting things on shelves, putting books off stacks on the floor onto shelves. Which, by the way, I've discovered means that I can actually see, much more easily, what books I have. Imagine that. But doing that creates this space of calm, makes this place peaceful ....
I'm thinking of the image from yesterday of the tracks of water in the sand and how it speaks to me of how we leave tracks, marks of what we are, what we've offered. The tracks in the sand are not the waves but they show us where the waves were and I love the photograph, I love that image because it in itself is beautiful. And so even though it is not a picture of waves it has beauty on its own. And the waves may not even be aware of the tracks they have left in the sand ....
Even walking into a space where care has been taken, the thing is that we don't think of the work necessarily that went into creating that, we just appreciate the space. It's often how it is, the appreciation of what is.
Being the change. I may never see when I walk in the world if I walk in beauty as I call myself to do. I might not see the wake of that beauty that I have left behind. But somebody else who walks there next may see and experience and appreciate it. And so I walk in beauty for the Earth. And for those who walk on it. And I create space for myself so I can do that. And although I didn't have the kind of meditation I expected, I think this is good ....
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One year ago, on March 1, more than 30 women gathered in my mother’s home for our annual Hinamatsuri luncheon. In Japan Hinamatsuri, also known as Doll’s Festival or Girls’s Day, is celebrated to pray for the health and happiness of our daughters. Here in Canada, my mother and I began a tradition of hosting a luncheon to celebrate women friends.
The centerpiece of Hinamatsuri is a set of Hina Ningyo, decorative dolls, representing the Emperor and Emperess and their court. When I was three years old, my grandmother made me a set of Hina Ningyo when my family visited Japan. Most families do not have a set of these dolls so this is very special.
Listen to the popular Hinamatsuri folk song.
This year we have all learned the importance of staying connected while we are apart. Since we were not able to gather for our luncheon, instead we created and sent special cards. In any given year around 35 of us can gather. Counting all of the cards sent by me, my mother, my son and niece, nearly 100 cards travelled across the country and the world.
While sad not to gather, I am grateful to be reminded that we can find ways to reach out, to connect across distance. Even with all of the cards sent, there are many other people to whom I did not send a card. In the same way we cannot invite everyone for lunch, we could not send out an infinite number of cards. However, it makes me aware of the number of women who have touched my life as friends, teachers, mentors and co-conspirators. And if you did not receive a card from me I hope you will realize that you are also important to me, women and men both. I am so grateful for your presence in my life.
My brother and I in Japan.
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