Coffee brain

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The water only sign on the water kettle mostly worked, there was mostly only water in the water kettle now. But that note didn't help his brain work. Today I found the coffee jar filled with water.


I knew something was up. Just his behavior, I knew that maybe something had thrown him off. And when I came into the kitchen I could smell that distinct coffee smell and I wondered if, in fact, he had put coffee in the water kettle. But it, there wasn't any, I sort of peeked even though he was standing there. And he had the coffee jar and he was fussing about with his coffee. And then he went down with his apple and his coffee down to the garage where he likes to sit and listen to the radio and smoke.


So I picked up the jar which was, oddly, not in the spot he normally puts it. This is a man of habit so the jar being off to the side was a little oddity But when I picked it up of course I could tell that it was full of water. And the thick dark sludge of instant coffee and water going down the drain like syrup. I imagine, in fact, that that dark sludge was how his thoughts trickled to him now. Trying to see through that darkness, must be really disconcerting .... 

#dementia